Disappear

I shut myself inside, I blare my music and pull the covers tight
They are arguing with me that the world is right,
they tell me its alright, they are so self involved in their silly little worlds
they don’t hear me say, echoes of my scream or my sheer dismay
the chatter is reaching a crescendo, the chaos a shatter
the mouths are continuously spouting away, roll of nonsense and disgrace
You make no sense to me, so why don’t you shutup?
I am playing nice, doesn’t mean I come without a button.
Don’t you see what I see, Can’t you see what I want to make you see
Your mockery makes me laugh, your stupidity makes my skin crawl
You are worse than an adulterous lover, a faithless priest, a snake in my sleeve
Call me a sinner, for I have sinned
I don’t share your vision, I don’t do as you do
Call me abnormal, for maybe I am
Cause I don’t look like you, or how you seem
You treat me like a child, a silly little putty to mould as you please
You have a game going, are you ready to play your hand before your queens?
Or are you holding to your aces, cause if I am the pawn of your game, we lose either way
Its easy to assume world is your stage and you are the king
But if you belittle me, you are going down without a fight or a raised hand
I am not here for your beck and call, you might be my blood but it gives you no excuse
To call me out, dagger my front and back and use a hammer to my ego
I am not a little girl anymore, Don’t think I don’t understand the wordless murmur
I see your eyes and theirs, I know exactly what you are thinking and how it all came to this
Just bloody stop, stop, like really stop
Your world is not my world, your worries are my non sense
I can’t take a word of it anymore, you aren’t the centre of my universe
So just stop..
Stop...and let me slowly disappear